The Blue Wall

The Blue Wall, my book tells my story of me, a young beautiful woman, a fashion and a runway model in New York City, and in Dayton, Ohio. I was chosen among hundreds of female models to be the sole female model featured on the Phil Donahue Show in Dayton, Ohio in the early 1970s. I modeled Walter Fountain Fashions.

This lifestyle came with luxury, furs, expensive clothes, diamonds, beautiful cars and with mental anguish, betrayal, infidelity, hurt and lies.

Years later, I was instructed by God to write my book, The Blue Wall to help others who had experienced the same things as me.

However, I allowed Satan to talk me out of completing it. I put my incomplete handwritten manuscript of my book, The Blue Wall, in my coat closet — where I would pass by it every day for twenty-two years.

But God would not let me forget my manuscript as I walked by it daily; He would tell me, "work on your book." Then I saw a famous lady's TV show where three women had been abused, who were crying and I started to cry.

Then God said to me, "you could have helped women like those on your TV and millions more." I immediately got my manuscript from my coat closet and I worked on it for two weeks almost without any sleep.

The Blue Wall, my book is read by men and women because its themes of strength, resilience, tenacity, and courage don't belong to one gender — they belong to anyone who's had to dig deeper than they thought they could. It speaks to the universal hunger to live fully, and reminds readers that a life lived to its full potential is built one hard day at a time.

The Blue Wall, my book is set against a backdrop of generational tension and quiet revelation, this is my novel about what it costs to break through — and what waits on the other side.

With all odds against me and my survival. I am not supposed to be here today. I often wondered why did God chose me to go through so much heartache, sorrow, grief, disappointment, hurt and anguish.

Now, I do know why. Because He knew my best days would be here with me today. "Thank you Lord for believing in me." But here I am telling my story to help others to know that God is on your side and that He has your back.

My life struggled because people took advantage of me and because I was abused by my boyfriend and at another time; I was homeless.

The Blue Wall, my book also tells the story of how I died in the hospital in Beckley, West Virginia in 1975 and that I had been admitted into many hospitals and seeing many doctors; when finally, one doctor chose not to give up on me. "I thank you Dr. Meredith Rohani, MD my Physician from the Beckley Hospital located in Beckley, West Virginia from the bottom of my heart."

I died on a Monday morning, in the middle of the night, at the one moment Dr. Meredith Rohani, MD finally allowed himself to sleep after watching over me for so long. I've always believed God timed it that way. My mother, Christine Hill Spencer, and Dr. Rohani never gave up on me — and I'm still here to tell it.

However, with the love and the grace of God and with His Blessing; finally I am able to tell my story to millions of people worldwide and in many languages.

Then after I finished my manuscript, the hard part was to find a book publisher. God then sent me a Guardian Angel by the way of a book publishing company who believed in me. That book publishing company was IUniverse.com. "I thank you from the bottom of my heart."